A lot...

A lot has happened in just one week. I wasn't sure if I was going to blog about this, but here I am. :) I didn't realize so many of my "real-life" friends read this blog, and I have gotten a lot of calls, texts, and messages. My principals helped me keep this quiet, because they wanted to give me time to heal and rest. Keeping things quiet is really hard in small town by the way. :)

Last Friday, wasn't a very happy day in our family. We found out that the little baby that we were so excited about meeting (most likely around Turkey Day) didn't have a heartbeat. :( Yes, I was pregnant and we were FINALLY going to have a baby! My beautiful, wonderful, smart, compassionate OBGYN, Dr. McCollum, was there with me every step of the way...from trying to get pregnant, to all of my appointments and ultrasounds (I had quite a few) and she performed the d and c on Tuesday. I am so thankful for her and grateful that the Lord brought me just the Doctor that I needed a few years ago. We chose to do the surgery because I was pretty far along and my body wasn't ready to miscarry any time soon. We felt like it would be safer to go ahead and do a d and c. It was so weird being put under, but I had really great nurses, and so much support from family and friends. I am recovering well. I felt great after surgery. I probably overdid it by going back to work on Thursday, but any kindergarten teacher knows that the week before graduation and the two weeks before the end of the year are hard to miss...after missing just 4 days I was very behind on things. I'm feeling better this morning though.

Of course, our hearts are just broken. Our spirit is a little bit crushed, but we are fine. We really are ok. We know that even though we were ready to meet our baby and be parents, the Lord has different plans for us. He has always been faithful to us, and we are excited to see how He can use these newest trials in our lives to help others. We know that this is just another test that will strengthen our marriage even. Matt always says that the best things come to those who wait. So, again we will just wait on the Lord and His timing and plans.

I will also probably post pictures from our first trimester of pregnancy soon. I just want to remember all the joy that we experienced in those first few months! We had waited so long to be able to say the words, "I'm pregnant" and "baby Whelan", that we just ran with it and probably went a little bit crazy too soon. :) But, y'all, I wouldn't change it.

Thanks everyone for checking on me!

Psalm 33:20-23
We put our hope in the Lord. He is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. Let your unfailing love surround us, Lord, for our hope is in you alone.