I rejoice!

The Lord blessed me with the most adoring, Godly, supportive husband in the world. He is also sweet as pie! He surprised me with this for our front door this evening. He is so sneaky :)


Well, I have to say that earlier, I wasn't rejoicing. I was sad. I rarely get angry, but I always let people walk all over me. Which isn't a good trait to have.

Long story short, people were talking about my birthday at work today, and basically called 26 years old OLD! They told me that I was already too old to have kids now, and that I shoudln't waste any more time. I don't care when people ask me when we're going to have kids, or when they ask if I'm pregnant b/c I feel sick, or am absent with the stomach bug. I laugh when people say, "It's time, after almost 4 years of marriage, it's time." These comments earlier, were serious.

Well, after some tears, and a long talk with Matt, plus some prayer time and Casting Crowns music, and a bubble bath I feel better. I guess it was just one of those Monday's.

I NEVER expected to not have children at my age. I have always seen myself with lots of kids, and I figured since I got married at 22, that I would have kids by 24. We both did. I started babysitting at the age of 10. Coached numerous tennis camps and a swim team for kids. Majored in early childhood education. We love kids! Age used to be a huge number for me. I have had many heart to hearts with 30 and 40 yr old women in my church...grilling them about what age they had children at, etc. I am taking their wisdom to heart.

Matt and I made the choice to graduate college, get my Master's degree, and now Specialists before having kids. I want to have all the time I can possibly have when we do have them, if we are so blessed. We both have baby fever. We know the names we will name our children. We have a 5 bedroom house, ready for kids. I drive a tahoe...plenty of room. We are both lucky enough to have great jobs. Now that we've gotten to this point in our lives, we want to have a little bit of "us" time and when the time comes for us to have children (probably sooner rather than later), it will be God's perfect timing and we will be thrilled. We really can't wait. However, we are planners. We know we will never have "enough money"...ect. We truly believe that we will be wonderful parents when the times comes. And most of the people we look up to and the people I really admire that I work with were 27-30 when having kids. And look at Kelly Stamps over at Kelly's Korner. If she's not a great example, then who is?

We're enjoying the stage that we're in now. We're content. I get to spoil 22 kids like they are my own day in and day out. If I had kids, I coudln't devote the time and energy that I give them and that they need to them. I literally treat them like my own, and we have a bond so great. I feel that way with a lot of my former students as well. I am getting to volunteer all the time for great causes, through JSL. We're very involved in many different areas in our church. Matt has plenty of time to golf with his buddies, we can just pick up and go most of the time, and we get to make our marriage stronger and stronger each day and spend tons of quality time together.

We are learning to slow down. To not say yes to everything. We have a hard time ever getting out of town, even though we can. Because we have so much going on all the time, due to organizations and job obligations. We would like to ease up on our commitments before having children. Example: One of my best friends had a Bachelorette weekend/shower this weekend. I just found out about it a month ago, but I already had 2 mandatory events to attend for work and JSL. I missed out. Sometimes it can get lonely livng away from absolutely all of our best college friends. Everyone lives in the northern part of the state, not the southern. I am very lucky to have my grad girls and all of my local friends, but I still miss my college girls, my best friends. I guess you could say, right now we're beginning to learn how to balance. For the last 2 years we've been full speed ahead, grad school and work. Now we're beginning to live again. I just have to be patient in this great balancing act that we call life :) Feels good to have that off my chest.

3 songs that bless me, from CC new cd. Hope you like them as much as I do.