It sort of doesn't seem real, but tomorrow would have been my original due date. I feel like the Lord truly healed my soul and I have been restored fully since the end of the summer. Of course I am extra sensitive to others that go through miscarriage or infertility problems and know the Lord is going to use our story to help others in the future. Just like He used people in my life, along with Jill McCloghry and Christy Nockels.
Every now and then it does it hit me, and when it does it hits hard. I don't think I'll ever look at the first few days of December the same way again. I am so thankful for the current season that I am in. I am a much stronger person.
Desert Song
Christy Nockels said this in an interview after she told about her 3 children, Noah, Ellie, and Annie Rose...
"We also have 2 babies in heaven that we lost by miscarriage…a season as beautiful as it was painful. Some of you may have heard the song “Glory Baby” which we wrote as a memorial to the sweet babies that God used to shape our hearts even more around His…"
Glory Baby by Christy and Nathan Nockels (Watermark)
I 100% believe that the past 7 months have been a season as beautiful as it was painful. When I first read it, I was like oh, that's nice. But now, looking back. I can see that it really has been an equally beautiful as painful time. I feel like many blessings have come from that season.
I'm going to post some pictures of the 3 months that we were pregnant (believe me I have a lot more) and some of the ways that we announced our news because it was a sweet time and I don't want to forget it! Ever!!
Before we ever even knew! We were just always praying and hoping!
I found out one morning while listening to You Revive Me by Nockels and truly felt revived after our long road! I didn't believe the test, double checked the box to see why the "not" wasn't showing up. Haha! I'd taken millions of tests and never had a poitive result. I somehow hid my excitment from Matt and went to work.
But I kept the only test that I had (shockingly) in my purse and looked at it all day during breaks at work! I still don't know how I made it through the day or the first few weeks. I was just thankful that Spring Break wasn't too far away!
I couldn't wait for him to get home from work and be surprised. This was in mid-March!
Of course I saw everyone that I knew at the Shaw center when I went to get my blood test to confirm the pregnancy and schedule my first real appointment.
When I got home Matt had a surprise of his own for me!
The way that we told my family! We had flowers delivered to my house and then showed up minutes after they were delivered. My mom was on the phone with me, when I walked in the house!!
We were thinking that a new mama to a December baby would need a large red diaper bag/purse. And of course a cookies/milk plate for Santa that Matt would get to eat. :)
The way I told my Seasons. :)
Gini ordered us cupcakes to celebrate my news!
A few days before my surgery. But I already had it scheduled. I love to look at this picture and see how "ok and peaceful" I look about everything. This was the day after I found out. I just had my music constantly playing everywhere I went. Even when it wasn't playing, I was hearing it in my head. The Lord definitely held me up the entire time and I am just amazed at that.
My very favorite lyrics from Glory Baby. I love them!
It’s hard to understand it ‘cause we’re hurting. We are hurting.
But there is healing... And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing- That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…
His plans are always greater than our own.
LORD, You are my GOD; I will exalt You and praise Your name, for in perfect faithfulness You have done WONDERFUL things, things planned long ago. Isaiah 25:1
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This makes me happy. Love you. Proud of the people you two are.
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